Band. I really dont want to go band tomorrow. I dont want to hear anymore bad news. I am unable to face reality. Why is this happening to our section? Today Nadirah, Natalie and ChinYing got transfered to horns. First it was HoiLeng. Then Kimberley. Now this. Whats next? I dont want to know. 5 ppl are gone, not to mention Amirah and Rachel. Why is Ms Sia breaking our section? Now we have no more 3rd trumpeters. No more. Gone. And i think they are the nicest seniors. Now they are transferring. Our section is getting smaller and smaller. I really miss the times in term 1 & 2. What is wrong with me? Why do i keep thinking that seniors are scary? Why did i want to pon band so badly last time? Why did i fail to treasure them? Why cant i be contented with what i have? Why do i always take things for granted? WHY!!!!!!!!!! I HATE MYSELF. I know that this is no use. Its over. What's done cannot be undone. Life must still go on. ( Though Nicole did suggest that me, her and Sarah jump down the building together) I just cant seem to be happy. Everything is going wrong since the start of term 3. And every week it keeps getting worse. I really dont want to go band tmr. I'm really scared of hearing another bad news. I lost everyone's contacts. I dont even get a chance to sms them): What kind of junior am i? I will stop being so scared of seniors. I really want to treasure what i still have and not regret anymore. After all, there is no harm with smiling and waving at them, instead of being scared. I hope things will be better tomorrow... yah like real.
It'll never be the same again.
It'll never be the same again.
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